Where we left our shoes ...

Tiny scattered moments...
Sprinkled on the garden of memories

Strolling with bare naked feet on them,
It feels we've wandered too far...
Now we can't remember...
where we left our shoes.

Our heels were soft,
when we got here,
They still feel tender...
and they will remain fragile

Till those bittersweet memories
keep tingling them,

True, we have forgotten,
where we left our shoes.
But now it seems,
we dont need them anymore

Walk with me a while ...

If you could see past the shore,
You would know what I think.

If you could hear the waves,
You would know what I think.

Remove this curtain of your stubbornness,
And look beyond the window...
If you could see through convention,
You would know what I think.

If you had faith in yourself as I do,
You would walk with me a while ..

If you could see the colors I do,
You would walk with me a while ..


If you want to touch the sky as I do,
Then your desires would come alive.
Then, in the next life,
we could fly together a while...

Right Or/And Wrong?

Back in school days I always thought that there is right and there is wrong. This person is a good person and that person is a bad person. I could easily label people and move on as if I served justice.
I was definitely young at that time but soon realized with the different experiences in life that there really is no wrong/right or bad/good. Its all about the persons perspective.

Life throws different challenges for everyone who comes to this planet. You look at some people and at their lives and think , "They are so lucky and that their lives are perfect. What worry in the world do they have?" Those same people maybe looking at you and thinking the same thing. What is gold is metal for some, and what is metal is gold for some. What each individual has gone through is a book in itself. So many experiences with so many people makes a persons life very interesting and unique in its own way. Even a murderers life would seem to be a normal one to some. Circumstances and support system plays a vital role in everyone's life.

The environment in which one is raised often influences the persons perspective. They see and observe their surroundings,the way people talk around them, the way people behave and the things they do. When you are young, you absorb those very readily and make them a part of you when you are a adult.  The human race being so diverse with so many cultures and different religions have produced people with different thought process and who go about leading a way of life which they believe is right. But what ever be the environment, if it has the bare essentials of love, respect and humility, it can make a gem of a human being.

In a country like ours we see the differences in thought processes clearly. Without a doubt we can say that people from north and very different from south in terms of thinking, talking and lifestyle. A state like Punjab and a state like Kerala can be a more specific example.If you are from Kerala you have the notion that people from the north are more into show off and are unrealistically extravagant and waste a lot. They(most of them) believe simplicity should be the way of life and that everything should be in its bare minimum requirement, be it food, clothing or how their houses are decorated. If you are from Punjab, you have the notion that people from south are way too narrow minded and have no zeal for life. They (most of them) believe that life should be lived king sized and everything should be enjoyed with enthusiasm so that there are no regrets in life. Clearly, both are right in their own ways. The above statements will definitely be a controversial topic for my friends. I can surely not say that one of them is wrong. Some people can, because it is their perspective. Do have your perspectives but please dont label anyone or any culture or any race with being wrong.

The human brain, being the most complex thing that humanity has ever seen, works in a very complicated fashion for which we really do not have an algorithm.  What one person is thinking at a point of time will always be a mystery to the other person. A husband looking at his wife would be wondering that his wife maybe thinking on what she could do for her parents while in reality she would be wondering how her former lover is doing. Jealousy, possessiveness, ego and bad attitude are a result of negative thinking and negative environment. No one is bad and has the intent of doing things which hurt people. Sometimes the words that come out from people, which were not very good to hear for you, may not be a result of their bad mentality or thinking but simply a product of the thousand emotions they are going through. Meditation and de-stressing your mind is a very important art one needs to learn. One should never bring the stresses of work to their home. They can discuss it, but the frustration should never be let out on the loved ones. One needs to find their venting source. Be it talking, writing, running, but something that does not hurt anyone or anything. Everyone needs that to survive this crazy world where there is no right or/and wrong!

Peace!

Hmmmm....

Well...

2 years since the last post!

I have so much to say but there is a point in life where you just cant say anymore. Everything looks ... so.....so.....so.... you see .... I am out of it.... cant do it anymore.....

The battle is on with life and I have no clue what I am fighting for ..... yet!

And someone says there is no battle. You have to be at peace with yourself.

voices voices voices.....

Not out yet... I want to Hibernate ..... Discover .... Feel .... Shut Up!



Cya on the dark side!

Down and out!

One song that surely plays in my mind!!!
It goes.........

Mama, take this badge off of me
I can't use it anymore.
It's gettin' dark, too dark to see
I feel I'm knockin' on heaven's door.

Knock, knock, knockin' on heaven's door
Knock, knock, knockin' on heaven's door
Knock, knock, knockin' on heaven's door
Knock, knock, knockin' on heaven's door

Mama, put my guns in the ground
I can't shoot them anymore.
That long black cloud is comin' down
I feel I'm knockin' on heaven's door.

Knock, knock, knockin' on heaven's door
Knock, knock, knockin' on heaven's door
Knock, knock, knockin' on heaven's door
Knock, knock, knockin' on heaven's door



---Bob Dylan

Colour Me Kubrick!

I'm not the man you think I am...
I'm not that kind of guy ...
beneath this sleek exterior
there's less than meets the eye.....

I'm just what you've been looking for....
your wildest dream come true....
I'm not the man you think I am....
But I'm the man for you....

I'm on important business...
I'm late for my premiere...
I'm doing you a favor
Just by being here..................

Surely you can buy a drink!
for someone so renowned....!
I'm not the man you think I am
but I'm the man you've found........

I'm burning with indifference
I'm sleeping with desire.....
I'm selling snow to Eskimos.....
I'm preaching to the choir.....

My past is catching up to me
my chips are coming due..........
I'm not the man you think I am
But I'm the man for you..................................................................................

Peace Out!

Mumbai!

The city that never sleeps.
Where people fight for almost anything.
Where competition reaches new highs everyday...where careers are made or broken in a second....where people gain or loose crores in a minute...where no one just stops....where you find a traffic jam even at 11 in the night!
Its 9 PM, there is no use playing with the code any more. It wont work now.
Wrap stuff up, pick up my bag and its exit time.
Pity the other guy who is still trying his luck with the code.
Open the office exit door and from the cool,calm quietness inside the office enter the world of honks and beeps of the outer world.
Grab a bite from the bakery shop and move on to reach home. Man sure is far away!
Feel like talking to someone, but I am a bore...I shouldnt make anyone else's life sadder!
Search for a funny message and send it to a few folks. Wish for a reply...but hey everyone's busy...dont really even wanna reply actually....dont knw wat I want to be more precise!
I wish I could say 'Beam me up Scottie' and I would be home thanks to the transporter of the Star ship enterprise.HONK!!! Back to reality.
Its 9.30, the road is packed with vehicles. Its all dug -up, cars come in from all the possible directions that geometry has to offer. Rickshaws,thousands and thousnds of rickshaws. Its like the road has been infested with these 3 wheelers. Then there are these Red Big Buses of BEST. People just hanging out of them. Hanging on for dear life. What am I doing here again?
I should be in the US checking out the white chicks...HONK!...back to reality!
Jeez its 9.30, where do all these people come from?
You try to stop these 3 wheelers to give you a ride to the station, but they just dont stop.
Its like 'dude...buzz off...i dont wanna go there!'
There are so many people out on the street. I really dont need to be out here! I can be driving in the Freeways of the US!!! (Ya nw u knw wat happens next...HONK!!!)
Mind really isnt thinking much and you just stare at people.
They all want to reach home.
Some are talking...some are running...couple holding hands and walking....yea i wish i cud hold someone's hand rtnw..i see the hotel where the TCS girl was murdered...all for the sake of love??..why kill dude...why kill ...am glad that I dont have this misery to deal with rtnw...but I am human!...strike back to reality again....search for a God-damn rick!
Damn competition to get a rick as well...
Alas my divine angel has pity on me and I get my ride till the station.
I swear I will never miss the company bus again but then again it was the 4th time in the week that i was swearing the same thing.
The station is packed too and trains are running spot on time. People still hanging out from them at this time of the hour.
I travel 1st class and I am really glad if I manage to get a space where I can manage to get both my hands up and catch the railings above!...I can expect that at this time ...its 10.45.
The ride is about 25 minutes, but it can drain out 20 litres of whatever from you!
Just glad that I am moving towards home...

People just keep moving in Mumbai. They all want to succeed. Everyone wants to succeed.
Any point and any hour people just dont quit here. Thats what I love about it.
I love the pain...i love the strangeness and I love the coldness...
I love the comfort...i love the closeness and I love the warmth that this city gives....
I love my Mumbai!

The spiritual Awakening? - the funnier side

Its 2’O clock in the morning or night (whatever you like), my eyes open up. I wake up with lots of thoughts. Have I woken up because my spirit has woken?

I realized soon that it was because I had to attend the nature’s call. Oh God! It was so refreshing, never felt so light!

All the thoughts vanished and it was only my cozy warm bed that I was thinking about then!

I breathe in and I breathe out, simply amazing isn’t it?

I go back to sleep, and then suddenly I get up with this feeling in my heart!

Is my soul restless? Is the spirit within trying to tell me anything? I keep quiet and I try to listen. A sound surely came from within and it went like…BURRP!....

Man the masala chicken that dad made sure was tasty and spicy. Shouldn’t have eaten so much though! My soul sure is restless. Hmmmm..chicken!

Anyways, have some milk and water and back to my world of paradise. I am at peace again with the world. Everything is calm and quiet .The bed is so cozy.

I enter again the blissful world of peace. Then into it again, I think I hear some noise coming from within, something eerie, something not very friendly to the ear. I know I am a sleep but I can still hear these noises. What could it possibly be?

Is this noise trying to deliver a message to me in some way? I try to focus on it. It was the worse that could be imagined. To my own horror, I had discovered what those noises exactly meant. It was me snoring. Worse than the way Kumbhukaran snored in the Ramayana. No wonder everyone closes my room’s door everytime I go to sleep!

My soul surely is restless and noisy now as well!

I accept the above fact and move on to face life again with all humility.

I close my eyes again and enter the …yea rite…the blissful world!

Some more time into it and I jump up again..

Has my soul finally awakened now?

The alarm was ringing for the third time and my dad was trying to figure out a way to shut it. The alarm sound creates nothing but chaos.

I surely did have my experience of SPIRITUAL AWAKENING!

I am a live…I am alive!

Breathe in and Breathe out….

Peace!

Keep Quiet

You have two choices: Either you follow most teachers and spend your life trying to remove or clean out the mind. First you will have to find out if the mind exists. No one has seen the mind. Even if you found it, how do you propose to clean it? Everyone is practicing cleaning the mind but there is no one so far who has cleaned it. Where is this mind to be cleaned?

The second choice is to keep quiet and you will know who really you are. This is very simple. It is not going to take you time; in fact time does not appear. There is nothing outside that can help you, you have just to keep quiet - that's all - and you will know then you are eternal. You are Eternal Existence itself.

Keep the faith!

Have you ever had an overwhelming problem or issue? Was there some circumstance in your life that seemed beyond your ability to handle it? Have you ever called out to God, guardian angels, your higher self, whatever name you give to that spirit?

Have you cried out to God for help with some crisis in your life?... Did you get help? .....When we get the help and assistance, we assume all is well in the heavens. We think, “Yahoo! Miracles really do happen!”

However, when we don’t get the answer or the help, we often conclude that there is no God.

We seem to have rolled it all up into a belief that if we visualise what we want or demand that the gods assist us in the manner we choose, then we’ll get whatever we want. What a spoiled bunch we are!.....

Positive visualisation and faith are intertwined..... You really can’t have one without the other. You cannot empower your visualisations without faith. Kind of a ‘duhhh’ statement.... Faith is not sitting around doing nothing while demanding miracles from the gods to come save you.... If you’ve made choices that have put you into a bad place, don’t yell at the gods to bail you out..... Don’t just sit there doing nothing while expecting the heavens to fix it all for you..... It’s not their job..... It’s your job.

Faith is trusting that if you work hard at finding solutions to your problems while following the Golden Rule, then things will turn out for the best. It’s believing that the gods will help you find or cultivate the solutions you need.

The Golden Rule, karma, - what comes around goes around, cause and effect - exists. If you make bad choices, bad things will happen. If you hurt people, people will hurt you. If you’re living a negative lifestyle, then cry out for the gods to come save you from your misery, you’re not likely to get any help. It’s your life, your problems. Learn, grow, heal, move forward.

You can tell your God you’re sorry for your part in creating the problem and that you’re ready to change it. Then prove it, by changing it. Your God will show itself somewhere along the way. Have faith and keep working.

Let’s assume it’s one of those times in life where you were happily going along doing your good deeds, having a positive attitude, and some nightmare blew up in your face anyway. What is your immediate response when that happens?

Do you claim there is no God and that all of your positive thoughts and deeds were of no use Do you lose faith that your God will guide you through the event? Or, do you hold strong to your God and to your positive beliefs? Do you roll up your sleeves and get to work on finding solutions? Do you even find ways to continue seeing the beauty in life while overcoming the adversity?

Negative people who don’t have much faith in themselves, in life, or in God tend to use life’ adversities as proof that they’re correct for being so pessimistic. While people who are upbeat and positive, having faith in them selves, in life, tend to use adversities to collect evidence that everything really does turn out for the best in the long run. Whether we believe in God or not doesn’t affect whether or not there is some form of God.

I can’t even say for sure that believing in God will inspire that entity to like you or help you. All I know is that when we have faith that things will get better, they usually do. When we believe things won’t get better, they don’t.

Do miracles happen? Absolutely! They happen to all kinds of people all the time. They happen regardless of religion, gender or financial position. By definition, they have a magical unexplainable mystery element that’s integral to how it came to be. Whatever that force is that causes such things to happen, it is awe inspiring.

Can you force miracles to happen by demanding them or by blackmailing your God with the underlying belief system that if your miracle isn’t delivered then you’re going to turn your back on your God? Definitely not. You can coax them by recognising them when they happen no matter how little they might be and by being thankful to whatever force you attribute them to. “Thank you for your divine intervention, whoever you are"