Cool dude ... yea rite!

All events and characters are fictious and any resemblance to real life is purely co-incidental!

Its Sunday again.... and i am up by 8!..damn sundays
Gotta exam!....another MOCK CAT...another day where I go write a exam and perform pathetically....IIM dream fading away....
I wished I had studied more during the week and specially yesterday....
NAhh... me too lazy!
Anyways, i drive dwn till the exam with only my icard and a HB pencil. I always borrow the sharpener and rubber...
Walk down the classroom and take the usual last bench!
This nice cute lookin chic comes in.
Class room is kindof full but always the back benches are mostly empty.
She cmes der and sits in the bench next to me...
Looks at me and smiles...
I give a controlled smile...:D...
She waves her hand towards me... i look...she makes an indication of something writing...
"Oh the poor babes didnt get a pencil... she needs a pencil..."
But there is a slight problem...I got only one pencil...
I act cool and look at her like things are under control...
I break my one pencil into two and move to give her the pointed part and ask for a sharpner from the dude sitting in front of me....
Wow hw cool right?!....
Well...had i paid more attention I should have realised that she was actually trying to indicate that she needed a sharpener and on mre close observation found that she had atleast 4 pencils wid her!...
I started talkin to the guy in frnt of me as if I knew him since childhood!...thanks fr the sharpener dude!
The girl was in a guffaw!...Didnt look at her but threw my side glance I could see white teeth shining!!!
I ROCK!


Peace!

Desperate Hearts...desperate hearts...its Amazing!!

These are the lyrics of the aerosmith song:-

sure tells a story....

I kept the right ones out
And let the wrong ones in
Had an angel of mercy to see me through all my sins
There were times in my life
When I was goin' insane
Tryin' to walk through
The pain
When I lost my grip
And I hit the floor
Yeah,I thought I could leave but couldn't get out the door
I was so sick and tired
Of livin' a lie
I was wishin that I
Would die


It's Amazing
With the blink of an eye you finally see the light
It's Amazing
When the moment arrives that you know you'll be alright
It's Amazing
And I'm sayin' a prayer for the desperate hearts tonight

That one last shot's a Permanent Vacation
And how high can you fly with broken wings?
Life's a journey not a destination
And I just can't tell just what tomorrow brings

You have to learn to crawl
Before you learn to walk
But I just couldn't listen to all that righteous talk, oh yeah
I was out on the street,
Just tryin' to survive
Scratchin' to stay
Alive

Desperate hearts, desperate hearts

Happy?

Are you happy?
What makes u happy...

If I was a millionaire, I would be happy!
If I had a beautiful sexy girl friend, I would be happy!
If I had the perfect body, I would be happy!
If only someone would understand me will I be happy!
If I get a great college,great job I would be happy!

So one day, I pass out from the best college,have a gr8 body,find someone who is beautiful and sexy. And yea, I am a millionaire!

I am supposed to be happy then rite!
I got what I wanted! ... I am happy...i am happy....
hell shit I am happy...I want more!.... There are people who got more than me!....
I wanna be better!....what I have now is nothing....there is so much more out there to grab!
Why settle for good, when u can have much better rite?!
Hey I am not sounding happy am I?
When will I be happy now?!

The gyaan starts now....
Well...
To be happy...the 'I' factor never comes.
Life is bigger. Life is bigger than you!( yes i knw the wrds are frm... REM losing my religion song)
The only time when anyone was happy was till when she/he was a year old.
Have you seen that smile on a child's face.
Its pure, its innocent, it is free,it has no pretence, it just expresses how that baby feels at that point of time.
It was so simple to get that smile, why all u did was make a funny face, that made the child 'happy' and it gave out the purest outcome of being happy...the smile!
He is happy,he is content,he needs nothing more.


So what am I getting at?...AM i the one who is gonna tell u how to be happy??....
I am no sage,i am no guru, I have not been to the himalayas... and I dont proclaim that I know the secret of happiness!
I am the regular normal pycho 22 year old guy who has just seen life from his point of view and guess who feels a lot more than others.
Yea I do feel... and I am pathetic at expressing it!...
So am 'I' happy...the answer is Nahh...not a chance!
The reason is that I am a human being!
We all are!...hence we all are not happy...

Saw this movie of Will Smith called Pursuit of Happiness....Its such a true story about everyones life....
No matter what you do...no matter how hard u try.... at some point of time you cant be happy...
Its such a weird thing....we have a million reasons to be happy in life and yet we remain sad for the fewest and the weirdest of all the reasons.

Well all I want to say is... the more u make ur life complex the more tough it becomes to be at peace with urself....the tougher it gets to be happy.
We humans have this urge,we have the greed...all we think is about ourselves...All we do is expect...
We expect from everyone...and therein lies the heart of all the misery.
Humans are endowed with so many emotions.
We are not capable of handling so many emotions....Life certainly would have been easier had we not had any emotions...

Am not saying that we shud not have any ambitions...that we shudnt aim high in life...
We shud be fierce...we shud compete...we shud try all our best....only thing is remain sane at the end of it... To be able to understand life even when u have reached where u wanted to be!
More than half of the people dont even have a clue what their destination is....

The best way to be happy is to forget about yourself.
Never think just only about yourself.
You are connected with so many other things...
Have u ever felt that joy when u helped someone...and the gratitude and the feeling of thankfulness the person gives u...the blessing that he showers on u........
the feeling that someone smiled becoz of u.... thats happiness!
To make someone at peace...to make his/her life more easier...to know the person is doing better because of u...that feeling...that inner nice calm soothing feeling is happiness.

Not to expect a thing back!...now this is the difficult part....and still remain happy is a very difficult thing to achieve....


It would be one heck of an achievement for someone to come up to this level...
I have been trying and have been failing miserably....
How can anyone not expect...how can anyone not feel!
Feelings and emotions is what is the cause!

Well I havent reached any conclusion even though i conclude this....Its an ongoing battle!
I am game for it!

Peace!